For some, the fall/winter season is a magical time where beautiful foliage falls from the trees and savory dishes like pies are made. But for other, more normal people, it is a time when you just want to curl into a fetal position in your bed and stay there for the foreseeable future. Naturally, The Smiths are a go-to during this time, and are featured accordingly on this list, but there are also a few other songs you might want to add to your mourning playlist this season.
10) "New Dawn Fades," Joy Division: Moody, robust and utterly entrancing, "New Dawn Fades" is a poetic, probing search for meaning over mistakes made. Ian Curtis sings, "Different colors, different shades/Over each mistakes were made/I took the blame." It's the perfect way to start out a bleak winter day.
9) "Rape Me," Nirvana: Obviously, the song title alone is enough to make you feel a bit queasy (unless, of course, you're a Ted Bundy type), but it's also Kurt Cobain's earnest invitation to rape him that makes you feel particularly bad about yourself. And then he tells you to do it again. It's a great self-esteem booster.
8) "Invisible," Skylar Grey: A bit of a curveball for its upbeat pop song nature, "Invisible" is a song that explores hating yourself and then hating yourself even more for trying to be something you're not. Lyrics like, "Every day I try to look my best, even though inside I'm such a mess," generally encapsulate what it's like to go to work during the winter.
7) "Asleep," The Smiths: No list of self-loathing songs would be complete without The Smiths. "Asleep" not only expresses a desire to go to sleep on a permanent basis, but also the belief that "there is another world, there is a better world/oh, there must be." That better world is spring.
6) "Numbers," Soft Cell: If your number one way to keep warm during the winter is by having sex, then this is the song for you. It will make you feel especially remorseful and regretful for your choices.
5) "New York I Love You, But You're Bringing Me Down," LCD Soundsystem: Maybe this song is only resonant for people who live in New York City, but, luckily, most of the U.S. population lives here.
4) "Under Your Spell," Desire: Obsessing over someone during the winter is the worst. Because there's nothing else to do to take your mind off of it.
3) "Foreground," Grizzly Bear: This song isn't just self-loathing because one only associates it with Blue Valentine, but also because one associates it with forcing yourself to "take on another shift" at work."
2) "Foolish Games," Jewel: Jewel is an apparent choice for feeling depressed, but "Foolish Games" possesses a particular strain of melancholia that only someone in a toxic relationship can know. Wishing to have the courage to escape from her loved one, Jewel notes, "Always felt I was outside, looking in on you."
1) "Hurt," Johnny Cash: Cash's cover of Nine Inch Nails is indubitably the best song for self-mutilation this season.